I am lazy as hell! Now don’t get me wrong, if I need to do something of importance then I will get up and do it. I just don’t have the same zest and zeal like I used to. I remember when I would just go for it without thinking, now I’m just like “But I don’t feel like it” or “Do I really have to?”. And because of that, I’ll be extra late doing something or won’t do it at all.
I often wonder what’s the culprit for my behavior. Friends? Family? Some traumatic life experience? None of the above. I blame that good ol’ “millennial sense of entitlement” syndrome. I blame myself. Before I had any real responsibilities, things came pretty easy for me. Yeah, there were some bumps in the road and a few delays, but either way I was still good. No life altering struggle. Maybe since most things in my life came easy and I felt like I didn’t have to do much is why I’m inconsistent with being serious about my career path. Or why I struggle to lose weight. Or why I lost my job.
There are days where I question if I am bold enough or ambitious enough to be great. I mean, how can I be when I don’t get shit done when I’m supposed to, right? Well, I’m more ambitious and bold than I think for two reasons:
- For five years after I graduated high school, going to college was a challenge due to financial reasons or listening to the opinion of others. Because I was determined to get my degree, I never stopped trying. I even let go of a full time job. I now have a bachelors degree and currently working on my masters.
- I am a black woman who had relaxed hair from age 6 to age 23. I was always known as “the girl with the long pretty hair that was hers” (lol!). I just up and decided that I would free myself from the creamy crack and go natural. Since then, I’ve done the big chop three times and plan on doing it a fourth time. #shorthairdontcare
Thinking of these things just reminds me of how I need to seriously boss up and get over this road block of laziness. I’m not some bright eyed 22 year old girl stepping onto a college campus for the first time anymore. I’m a grown woman with bills to pay and no one to help me pay them. I have dreams and goals to achieve with no one giving me a handbook on how to get there (or money to finance these dreams). There have been plenty of great opportunities that have come about that I wasn’t prepared for and I let them slip away. Like a cousin of mine says, “Stay ready so you don’t have to get ready.”.
If you are like me, my advice to you would be to take a good look at your current situation. If you don’t like what you see, then change it. But that requires you to get off of your behind! Think about what it is that you really want to do and take the proper actions necessary to get there. Be willing to learn as much as possible, get your hands dirty, lose a little bit of sleep, and start from the bottom while working your way to the top. Remember, you don’t know everything and you aren’t as special as you think. Humble yourself. Your future and your maturity depend on it.
I’m talking to myself, too…